You are NOT what happened to you in the past. You ARE how you choose to live now.

It is time for me to start taking charge of my life: where I want to be, or simply what my next step is.

I have let myself slip into a state where a blame the status quo in my life on everything else around me, when the truth is that I am afraid to take a step. I am afraid of the uncertainty, of the unknown. Too many what-ifs, too much over thinking the subsequent steps before I even cleared the step before me. I had unknowingly allowed myself to indulge in my own denial. Denial of the fact that the world does not owe me a living. Everyone else going through the same thing: everyone is primarily responsible for their own life. Even though life may throw curveballs at me, ultimately, it is how I take these curve balls, how I react to and deal with them that matters. Whether I am lucky or not, that will be a bonus but  it cannot be the foundation of my life. I must forge my own path. I must take steps which will allow me to be closer to my dreams, be they material or non-material. I must lead myself. I must sustain my own fire.

No more over thinking. No more being controlled by fear. Boost my confidence. It is time to step up. It is time to be what I wish I was. I may not be there now, and I may not know the way there, but I must use my own fire to light the way.

It is time to change.